G • R • A • T • I • T • U • D • E

Gratitude. What does this word mean to you? To me, it means being Thankful, not only for the things you have but also the things you don’t have; not just for the good experiences in life but also the negative ones; not just for the joy but also for the pain. It is very easy to be grateful for all the good things we have. However, the true test lies in the ability to be grateful in times of adversity.

One simple example for my case is having been born with the condition I have, i.e. Osteogenesis Imperfecta (OI) aka Brittle Bone Disease. I can either choose to spend my days cursing at the fact that I have it and look at it as my ‘unfortunate fate’ in life OR I can choose to be grateful for it and look at it as a blessing instead of a curse. I for one, have definitely chosen the latter. The reason is because this condition of mine has 1. shaped me to be the person I am today, 2. made me a very strong willed person who is only growing stronger day by day, 3. given me the opportunity to touch other people’s lives, and many more. As of late, I have come to realize that I don’t even need to do anything to achieve number 3. My mere existence seems to be enough. That is indeed truly humbling and I hope to continue to be able to help more people out there by merely ‘existing’ lol.. That being said, it doesn’t mean I don’t have my negative moments or my depressive episodes. Of course I do, for I am only human after all. But again, that’s where gratitude comes in once more. I am also grateful for these down moments as it allows me to take a step back and gives me some time to recharge and come back fully charged. It’s like charging your phone – your phone battery will eventually get lower and lower the more you use it but then you give it a break and let it charge and it’s back to 100%. So yeah, same goes to life too. Easier said than done for sure, but it IS doable!!

In June 2018, a group of four young individuals including myself started the first ever talent / modelling agency for the differently-abled in Malaysia known as DON Management. I was absolutely thrilled to have been given the privilege to work alongside the Founder of the company, Bernard Benzamin, and was even more humbled by the fact that he chose me to be one of his business partners. I was extremely thankful (still am) for this opportunity as I had not only gained new friendships but also gained a whole new experience in the process. I tried very hard to keep up to my title as a Co-Founder of the Company but there were times I had failed to live up to what was expected of me. This left me dissatisfied and disappointed. Not so much towards others but more towards myself. Eventually, I felt it was time for me to step down. It was a very painful decision for me. One that was not easy to make and one which I definitely did not see coming. At least not so soon. However, I made this decision because I felt it was the right thing to do at that time. Both for myself and for the benefit of the other parties involved as well. Now, I can either choose to whine about how this happy beginning turned out to be a prompt & devastating ending, OR I can choose to be grateful to have been given that humbling experience even though it was just for a short period of time. Once again, I choose the latter. The way I see it, I have learnt A GREAT DEAL. From how to deal with clients, to how to deal with my business partners, the things I should and shouldn’t do, the things I should and shouldn’t say, and many many more valuable lessons I will take with me along this journey of self discovery. I am also ever so grateful to still be able to be a Model in this ever blossoming Company. Being a Model is something I had only dreamt of. To be honest, I had never thought it was possible for me to be a model given the condition I have and how I look as a result of it. However, this mindset has changed drastically over this short span of time due to the existence of DON Management. It has given me hope that the average perception of the media that models must only be tall and skinny, will soon change. It has made me realize that you can be anything you want to be. As long as you put your mind, heart and soul into it, Nothing & No One can stop you, and the Sky is the Limit. And boy, am I ever so grateful for all these realizations and blessings..

I can practically go on and on as there are many more examples like the ones above but basically, the point I’m trying to make here is that we can be grateful for both the negative and the positive things in life and we can always choose to look at the negative instances in a positive manner. It’s not always easy I must admit. It takes a lot of practice and harddd work but I believe it starts with GRATITUDE 😊

Till Next Time,

Your Beautifully Imperfect Nut

2 Replies to “G • R • A • T • I • T • U • D • E”

  1. Again, you have consistently retained the beautiful balance that is so difficult .
    The way you write it, it comes out more honest and therefore inspires.
    Thank you for writing on this subject as we all need it

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